The past has passed!!!!!

14/04/2008 I wrote this in my diary.

I just can't wait to start my new life.
I just can't wait to tell myself that I'm a professional.
Things go. Time flows. And I've grown up.
Context of my life has changed.
Also, I'm stronger.
Now, I can deal with problems as a rpofessional artist.
Chapters of life is just a lesson.
Why not? Just go.
Deal with it as a grown-up.
Abandon my weakness and don't fear to face the storm.
I am a professional dancer.
I am an artist.
I am a seeker.
My spirit is going on and on.
It keeps growing up.
Don't forget.
Be professional!!!

Well, how did it go after that?
Have my bone broken, right?
How did I deal with that?
Did I cope with it as a professional artist?
I'm not so sure now.
I was too weak. I mean my mind.

My eyes are sparkling while I'm talking about dance.
It's reasonable as it was such a happy moment
...wandering through those memories.
Perth and Hong Kong, they made my life changed a lot.
But, it just a memory....MEMORY....
I can't turn back to the ghost of past.
The past has passed!!!

Thank God that the 2 parts of me aren't fighting to each other now.
I'm quite what I don't want in my life.
It's very diferrent from knowing what I want.
However, I don't know how can I keep away from the things I don't want.